Junior Varsity Girlfriend Murdered
Olamide was with me since I started this band about 3 years ago. She has seen the band progress since day one and has always been very proud of our pursuit at becoming a great band. She would be happy to know how much you guys have supported me in dealing with all of this. I will never be the same person again. It is impossible to accept that she will not be coming back to comfort me like she used to. I would complain to her so much about how i wanted the band to be progressing more and she always consoled me. I spent countless hours begging and urging agents and bands to help us with very little results. She was always there for me if i was upset about anything and i was always there for her. We kept to ourselves very much. We never had any money to go out and do much....we didnt even have cable....we literally only had each other and we were content. She loved coming to our shows. I could never even understand how should could want to go so often, but every weekend she wanted to travel with us to whatever broke ass show we were playing. She loved watching the band get better and better. Its sad to think she will never hear our next record and will never see a show again.
So, at least, after 2 very painful weeks, it is over. For her family and me it is going to be very hard to regroup and feel normal again. All i have in my life is my band. I have worked so hard at it and my dream was to one day support olamide and me through the efforts of the band. That is what gave me my main drive in being an ambitious musician. All i can ask is that you please help me try and realize my goal. I know you have all been very supportive through all this....ive received hundreds of messages....but please turn that support into support for something I love and that Olamide loved too. Please come out to some of our upcoming shows if you can. I really need the assurance that what i am doing is not in vain, now more than ever. Let me feel like my band is worth something and that all of you believe in us as much as i do. Nothing else matters much to me anymore and I am left feeling like our world completely evil and unfair. Please bring me some relief in proving that this is not true. Help me to feel normal again and gain a sense of accomplishment. I could be at home wallowing in my own self pity but instead i opted to be on the road with my band. This is what she would want me to do, as hard as it is for me to stand up in front of people and play my guitar, i feel compelled to do it. If I am brave enough to continue playing shows despite the horror i have faced then i am asking that you please come out and support us for that reason. I am not going to give up on this band....not even when misfortune and horror continue to surround us. If I am not going to give up, I am asking all of you not to give up on us either. I have a new reason to continue doing this...a reason that will keep me from ever wanting to stop. We are playing all over the country for the next month and all i can ask is that you try to come out and support us when we need it more than ever. Thanks for reading this.
very sincerely, andy wildrick"