Singled Out: Epic Death's Hide
The story behind "Hide" is not a pleasant one. It reaches deep inside my memories of my childhood. Somewhere I normally stay away from but for you I will give you the full story of where "Hide" actually came from.
I was raised in a strict Christian household. My love for music was only fed by Christian hymns in the beginning or old time country music like Johnny Cash and a few others. One of my Dad's friends from church encouraged me to play guitar and I joined the praise team at church. I knew there was more out there for me when it came to music but I just wasn't sure what it was. I asked for a guitar and my Dad got me a beat up old acoustic from a pawn shop to see if I was really interested in the playing. He hadn't been paying attention to me much but at least I got a guitar. You see I truly felt a deep burning inside me to play electric guitar like the friend in the praise team. So without me knowing my Dad had skipped eating lunch and saved his lunch money (we were a poor family) for a year to buy me an electric guitar and small amp for Christmas one year. I never saw it coming and it made me feel like my Dad really was paying attention to me for once.
As I got a bit older things started to change between me and my Dad. He started to become even stricter on me, especially when it came to music. My friends would sneak tapes to me so I could listen to the music I really enjoyed which was rock and metal. My Dad could never know as it would be the end of me for sure. Well it didn't take the music to start the unfortunate beatings that I received.
You see if I happened to give him, what he thought, was a dirty look he would be quick to smack me around for it. I couldn't win, no matter the situation; the answer was a beating from my Dad. Because of this I had to wear shades all the time whether inside or outside. To this day whether it is artificial light or sunlight I still have to wear shades because the light hurts my eyes.
I left home at 15 and encountered many more heartaches; you see my heart was broken countless times by my Dad and a few others. Around the age of 19 is when I decided to try and patch things up with my Dad, I was older now and hoped that things could be salvaged between us. Just as things were starting to look up my Dad was diagnosed with brain cancer and I was never able to fully tell him how much I loved him no matter what happened to us in the past.
So with that all said, "Hide," was written from the way I felt when looking back on the relationship that I had with my Dad mostly and a few other heartbreaks. In the verses you get a good feel for the deep seeded pain I was feeling and still to this day experience from time to time when looking back.
Luckily music is my therapy and playing heals the soul but will never heal the pain I felt / feel. I have provided the lyrics to "Hide" for everyone to understand where I was when I wrote the song.
Lyrics for "Hide":